Forgiveness offers everything I want

Good morning! Waking up to such a lesson from a course in miracles, turns my whole grumpy morning mind into a state of joy and yearning for it to unfold. It is a blessing to be able to turn to a mind training

that changes the very substance of my existence. Without the lesson I would wake up grumpy, would drag myself through my morning ritual and through the day. Not even liking the fact that I am alive. Forgiveness on the other hand gives me a purpose. A purpose to see myself in its light. 
How do you look in the face of forgiveness? How does your friends, your colleges look through forgiving eyes? See how easily the world can turn in front of you? I love the fact that the world in itself is not real. That I give it all the meaning and that is what it reflects back. 


The lessons  reminds me that I just need to act on the lesson. My life is not about organizing or planning my littleness. But about shining my light, the light that comes out when I forgive myself. There is always a better way to do thing and forgiveness offers me this better way. It brings a gentleness in my life that I never thought possible. It brings a clarity to me that I had always dreamed of. 
And to express it in the words from the lesson:
„Forgiveness offers everything I want
Today I have accepted this as true
Today I have received the gifts of God.“

Here is the link to the full  lesson: "Forgiveness offers everything I want" of a course in miracles

If I defend myself I am attacked

Who would defend himself unless he thought he were attacked, that the attack was real, and that his own defense could save him? And herein lies the folly of the defense; it gives illusions full reality, and then attempts to handle them as real. It adds illusions to illusions, thus making correction doubly difficult. And it is this you do when you attempt to plan the future, activate the past, or organize the present as you wish. (A Course in Miracles, Lesson 135)

In the moment when I let all my defenses go, the whole world is here to bless me. It is funny, that we always expect the worst of the other person. And never really question that. But when we really communicate and not take our first thought so serious, we always discover that everybody just gives and offers us everything, the love of the whole universe.

I will there be light

I will there be light. Darkness is not my will.

If I so choose, I can depart this world entirely.

...It is not death which maked this possilbe, but it is a change of mind about the purpose of the world. (from A Course In Miracles. lesson 226)
At the gas station yesterday I had this realization that heaven is right here. It can't be anywhere else. The idea of heaven being somewhere out there, or putting this idea toghether with the sky does not make sense at all. Heaven is a decision that I must make. That is so complelty contraty what I was always told. It is always the opposite. I am always wrong. Heaven is right here with me, or there is no heaven at all. There is no heaven without me. I am so grateful that I am not left out. I was just always leaving myself out. It is time to include yourself in with GOD.

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Finding God

Finding God is a continuous action of mind. It never stops. I never stop in my mind to ask for more and ask for the truth in every moment. Every moment holds the possibility for an Holy instant. Right here. Right here is where the journey home starts. In a sense it is a process, a journey already fulfilled, already made. I have such a urge to just extend this incredible message of a course in miracles. Because all of the suffering is not necessary. It's just not necessary. You are not guilty. You are not guily. I love it in the movie "God will hunting", where the therapist tells the guy a lot of times you are not guily. And the guy goes "Yeah, I know." But when it really hit him he started crying and that was that. He was healed. So I am telling you right now. You are not guilty. At least I am really happy to hear that and I am so, so grateful.

GOD is the strength in which I trust

GOD is the strength in which I trust.

I have given the power to so many sources outside of myself.
I gave the power to the people that surround me to tell me - whether I look good, -whether it is ok to do what I am doing, -whether it is ok to be who I am.
I am constantly trying to get approved, to adjust and fit in. It is an ongoing battle between my sense of who I am and the response I get from the world. It will never make me happy.

GOD is the strength in which I trust. That strength is in me it is not outside of myself and can’t be found outside of myself. My vigilance is it to stay in the presents of myself and not identify myself with anything outside of myself. I am bringing everything home in my mind and realize that nothing here will make me happy. That there is something beyond my perception out of the reach of my everyday thinking pattern. Impossible to reach without the desire for something else. Without questioning the now perceived reality. But always there waiting for me to let go and give up my self constructed idea of myself so that what I really am can emerge and have fully the ability to be me. I will step back and let HIM lead the way. GOD is the strength in which I trust.

God is enough!

We live in a world where nothing is ever enough. I want more and always more, more of everything. And in my mind all of that more is so completly justified. Lists of things that I really need. And then in the ruch of more I hear one sentence that takes away the whole load. God is enough. I destroy all my lists and thoughts of what I want in my mind. God is enough. I don't need anything else. God is enough I don't want anything else.

God is enough.

Heaven is a decision you must make.

Everything is your decision and everything happens because you have decided for it. Yes wheather you like it or not that is the secret to your salvation. And everything becomes so simple out of that true statement.
What---- I can't complain any more? Because I set this asshole up to be an asshole. What a bummer... What that requires now is an active conversion of all of my thoughts. This is what the mindtraining offers me. To be in a constant communication with my creator. And let all of my thoughts go. Let them completely go. That feels so good. Freedom...Because God is the mind with which I think. I am entering the mind of God in an admission of my powerlesness over my humanness, over what I think that I am. I might be wrong about what I think I am. The Course in Miracles offers me a wide open door that was always open and available for me to step through and enter into a new realm of being. That is nothing esoterical or abstract, but simple the acceptance, extension and experience of what I really am.

The magnificent 12

The lessons right now - Lession 127 through to 139 are the magnificent 12. They are all you need to know about your transfrmation and awakening.
They take you step by step further and further and always show you more than you suspected and even dear to want. Like today you have this real experience that there is no world and the next day he takes you to the step where he shows you another world . Jesus always takes everything from you but gives you more back than you had hoped for. How incredible.

on creation

When everything clicks in, than my frequency is the same with the frequency of who I really am and on that level I start to create.

Creation is a matter of alignment. In other words: Being on the mark, rather than knowledge and experience.

Relationship is about creating.

Creation comes from an emotion behind the object, a passion....
What is your passion?

The light has come!

The light is so tangible in my mind. Increasing and becoming apparent. I have to tell you about the light. Because for me it is the most natural thing to go to light and dissapear into the universe in an instant becoming one with everything. It is like an explosion of light in my mind and at the same time extending itself out and in. And converting all the darkness in my mind into the purness of the truth of myself. And that is my natural state. The easiest thing in the "world". There is no world - by the way....
This light is availably to you!

Gratitude

I am so grateful.
So grateful for you showing up in my dream. Grateful fo my awakening. Grateful just because. Grateful for the light that increases the frequency with such intensity. Grateful for God. Grateful for the solution that is already in my mind. Grateful for no reason whatsoever. Grateful for every reason.
You know what? I am just f... grateful. And that's it.

Teacher of God

I am finding myself in a transformation - a stepping up in my mind to the one that I truly am. A few questions arose in that process and I found incredible stuff in the Teachers Manual of the Course in Miracles.

...Any situation must be to you a chance to teach others what you are, and what they are to you....

...A teacher of God is anyone who chooses to be one. His qualifications consist solely in this; somehow, somewhere he has made a deliberate choice in which he did not see his interests as apart from someone else's....

...But the content of the course never changes. Its central theme is always, "God's Son is guiltless, and in his innocence is his salvation."...

...When pupil and teacher come together, a teaching-learning situation begins. For the teacher is not really the one who does the teaching. God's Teacher speaks to any two who join together for learning purposes. The relationship is holy because of that purpose, and God has promised to send His Spirit into any holy relationship. In the teaching-learning situation, each one learns that giving and receiving are the same. The demarcations they have drawn between their roles, their minds, their bodies, their needs, their interests, and all the differences they thought separated them from one another, fade and grow dim and disappear. Those who would learn the same course share one interest and one goal. And thus he who was the learner becomes a teacher of God himself, for he has made the one decision that gave his teacher to him. He has seen in another person the same interests as his own....

...Each teaching-learning situation involves a different relationship at the beginning, although the ultimate goal is always the same; to make of the relationship a holy relationship, in which both can look upon the Son of God as sinless. There is no one from whom a teacher of God cannot learn, so there is no one whom he cannot teach. However, from a practical point of view he cannot meet everyone, nor can everyone find him. Therefore, the plan includes very specific contacts to be made for each teacher of God. There are no accidents in salvation. Those who are to meet will meet, because together they have the potential for a holy relationship....

...Perhaps the best way to demonstrate that these levels cannot exist is simply to say that any level of the teaching-learning situation is part of God's plan for Atonement, and His plan can have no levels, being a reflection of His Will. Salvation is always ready and always there. God's teachers work at different levels, but the result is always the same....

...Yet all who meet will someday meet again, for it is the destiny of all relationships to become holy. God is not mistaken in His Son....

...No teacher of God can fail to find the Help he needs....

It's all about you!

There is no one out there. I mean that literally. The human condition is what co-dependency is. It's always about the guy next to you either he pisses you off or you are so in love that you don't know what to do. Which always ends up in being pissed again. Here you have the whole human condition, right in front of your eyes. And you don't even think about it, just play your roll. That you are not happy with it always gets reasoned away - because there will be a future time when you will be happy. My friend that will never come. The only time there is, is right now. If you are not happy now you never will be. Sounds like a treat. It is! It is a wake up call, to wake up to the reality of who you are. Which has nothing to do with what you think you are now. It depends on me. It depends on me. On changing my mind. Which is not always comfortable, but the happiness that comes with it is undescribalbe. I am so grateful. Grateful for waking up from this dream. And seeing that it all depends on me. Nobody is outside of myself. So nobody can make me feel better or worse. I am just doing it to myself. I am just doing it to myself. And I can stop it.
Thank you and good luck!

This never happened!

This actually never happend. This world is over and gone and I with it.

when all clicks in...

Did you ever have the experience that suddenly everything falls into place and all the pieces are at the right spot, exaclty where they are supposed to be. There is a divine plane behind each one of us guiding us, always available for us to follow it. This was a day like this for me, after struggling with a task for several weeks all the pieces finaly came together in such a miraculous way that even my friends where happily surprised. God is right here just waiting for me to open up to him and let him lead me home. It is a shift in energy frequency and has nothing to do with me in the sense that it works through the grace of god. I love it. The grace of god is flowing through me and the results are stunning, but in that moment I don't even care about that. All the pieces are together and I am healed and whole. Free to forgive and free to save the world

When I fall in love....

...it will be forever...
The process of falling in love is usually pretty simple. It just happens and out the blue there is this happiness that never before was felt. And then in the same sudden direction of life the fear caves in and what was just a moment ago simple bliss turns into a living hell of doubt and worries. At this moment Jesus thought me to not stop giving. To give and love despite of everything and then all of a sudden the bliss of falling in love comes back, but in a very different way. Out of now where connected to nothing without expectation, sharing with everyone and everything... this never ends, it is now and then it is forever...

Where an ancient hatred....

Where an ancient hatred has become a present love!

This is the most incredible conversion taking place in me. And it is all about me. I always heared the thought (where an ancient hatred has become a present love) and then one day it hit me that it was all about me. That it was about me hating myself and I saw all that hatred flow away and there it was - a self love so enormous ... I am so gratful. There is nothing to be guilty about! nothing that I have to be afraid of.
The answer to everything is love and extend and give and give some more.

Faith

This is such a great part of the course, and since a few days always when I pick up the course in open it randlomy I always end up at the same section from the end of chapter 19.

"You came this far because the journey WAS your choice. And no-one undertakes to do what he believes is meaningless. What you had faith in still is faithful, and watches over you in faith so gentle, yet so strong, that it would lift you far beyond the veil, and place the Son of God safely within the sure protection of his Father. Here is the ONLY purpose that gives this world, and the long journey THROUGH this world, whatever meaning lies in them. Beyond this, they ARE meaningless. You stand together, still without conviction they HAVE a purpose. Yet it is GIVEN you to SEE this purpose in your holy Friend, and RECOGNIZE it as your own."

I can't undergo my own transformation without you, without my brother by my side. You are my saviour. That is the point when I am complety vulnurable and don't defend myself from you. Where we join in the love that we share with the universe and we go beyond our little dreams and extend forever and complete freedom and happiness.

I don't know my own best interests!

From the moment I woke up everything went wrong. But I had no idea how screwed up it was going to get. I called the Hotel and they did not have my reservation any more, it was booked out and was the only Hotel in the area that I was going to go. Consequently, after all the commotion, I was late for work.....When I got home I finaly got to do the lesson for the day and I started to laugh - I do not perceive my own best interest! How incredible is that? How much fun applying it on a day like this. I really have no idea what is good for my. My invinitly tiny small point of view, does not allow any flaws in my plan for my salvation. Immediatly I get upset about God - you are not taking care of me!!!!!! Wow am I wrong!!! I am so complety wrong! I do not know my own best interests! I have no idea how the details of my story will play out. But I know that I am in God's hands and only the best can come to me in every instant.

This thought does not mean anything

This thought does not mean anything. And this thgouth does not mean anything.
I am doing everything to reach God. Nothing seems to be enough, nothing seems to be working. And at all times it is just my mind that judges my progress and my solutions, that I though I finally found. Like for New Year you have all those New Year Resolutions that you already know that you can’t do them more than a few dyas and then you start hating yourself again, just like the last year and the one before that as well. You are trying so hard to be yourself. That is the only requirement - to be yourself. But boy is that hard. I am always doing way too much, trying way to hard… it’s so much easier – Nothing I think means anything! No! NO! – Nothing! Not even that thought. Not even that one. Nothing I think means anything.
My experience today was that everything came to me. I gave up completely, had no ideas about the people or anything around me. Freedom – like God – is right here. Just stop for a moment and don’t do anything.
Nothing I think means anything.

Overdose!!!!!

G. O. D. =

Gratitude
Over
Dose

God loves you so much!

There is no Love but God´s.

Love created me like itself.

God is the love in which I fogive.

Love is the way I walk in Gratitude.

Love holds no grievances.

All those lessons from the Course in Miracles that express the certainty of the love for God for you. In the introduction to the Course it says, that "this course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love for that is beyond what can be thought. It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love´s presents, which is you natural inheritance."

Wheather you like it or not God love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!

Don´t let the world tell you who you are!

Don´t let anyone tell you who you are. Means stepping up and not searching outside of yourself for answers to your ultimat question: Who am I? The answer is in you. You are not of this world, that´s why this world can´t tell you who you are.
Step up and be yourself. Nobody knows what that will look like including yourself. That´s the fun of it. This is it - it´s not a rehearsal for a later time perfect you. You are already perfect. You are as God created you and that´s it.

From Motivation to Creation

Just a quick download of my thoughts...
Motivation always comes from a thought of lack. You don´t have that so you are motivated to do something about it to get it. It always has a result at the end. And the result of everything is death. So motivation is death. I never ever thought that way. Always thought that motivation is a good thing and it keeps me going. But it actualy keeps this dream, this ilusion going.
But without motivation I thought - I will not do anything. But the truth is, that without motivation the things that I am doing are creation - I am creating because I do not look for a result. I do not act out of lack. It is so incredible the turn around of my thoughts.

The thing about being yourself

Being yourself for me means that I don't adjust. Adjusting always entails an action of changing or fixing something here. I have to change my appearance in order to be loved, I have to fix the broken car so it can run again. I immedeatly look to the solution and want to adjust to the problem.
The course teaches me that there is no solution to my problem. Don't adjust - there no solution. Instead of adjusting to the situation change your mind about it. Your car doens't start - stop and take a moment and look at your real problem - which is: that you think you are seperate from God! Who cares about a broken car - I am seperate from God! But you are always so busy trying to fix your little problems here, that you never stop and look what the real problem is. You have to recognize the porblem so it can be solve!
Wow isn't that incredible? You are so afraid of the love of God - so you adjust and fix yourself through this world. Fixing and changing something here is always followed by a result. And what is the result of everything here? Think about it.....
It is death. So adjusting is what death is.
WOWOWOWO that's not what you want to hear? So you never really looked at the problem? Seperation from God is death - therefore if you are seperate from God you are dead. So being completely who you are is what live is. It feels so good to be myself. I don't have to adjust to concepts in my mind anymore I am complete free. That's finding God.

What is God and HOW do you find him?

What is God and HOW do you find him?
Is he in each and every on of us as a little flame of light, that my quest is to find and make it stronger? Is he the one that judges me for everyhing I do and in the end condems me to hell? Which of these pictures or concepts is the right one - which one will save me? - God there must be an easier way to you? It does not matter what you believe, the fact is, that everyone thinks about God - in one or the other way - in prayer , in search, or in complete denial.

None of that ever helped me. I read all the possible spiritual books and I knew from the beginning that there was a God - I never doubted that - so why did I wanted to find him?
Simple because I was not happy. I hated myself and wanted to be something, somebody else. That's why I studied, worked etc.. all out of a motivtion that would bring me a certain result and then everything would be ok. But it never was ok. Whenever I reached a certain goal - I felt the same like always - and I was still me.

In this complete dispair I found the Course In Miracles its message was so absolut different : To find god is simply to be exactly the way you are. And these seems to be the hardest of all the tasks a spiritual teacher or Litrature every gave me. Do you mean that I am ok the whay I am. I don't have to purify myself, better myself so I am wothy of him?
Oh my God it dawns on my that I was rejecting myself all my live and searched a relieve in trying not to be myself.
It's so simple! But I need the mindtraining of A Course In Miracles to remind me in every moment who I am and that God completey loves me. That I am as God created me.
What a relive! What a joy! I am so grateful.

In God all things are posible

The word of God is given me to speak

This is todays lesson of A Course In Miracles. I am so grateful that Jesus gives me everything! This lesson offers me so much grace - the grace with wich I want to encounter my brother. I makes me act so gentle with the total certainty of who I am. Thank you!

God is given me to speak.

What is the Word of God? "My Son is pure and holy as Myself." And thus did God become the Father of the Son He loves, for thus was he created. This the Word His Son did not create with Him, because in this His Son was born. Let us accept His Fatherhood, and all is given us. Deny we were created in His Love and we deny our Self, to be unsure of who we are, of Who our Father is, and for what purpose we have come. And yet, we need but to acknowledge Him Who gave His Word to us in our creation, to remember Him and so recall our Self.

Father, Your Word is mine. And it is this that I would speak to all my brothers, who are given me to cherish as my own, as I am loved and blessed and saved by You.

-Lesson 276, Of the Workbook of A Course In Miracles

All about God and how to find him

All About God and how to find him

¨ God Is My Source. I Cannot See Apart From Him.
¨ God Is The Light In Which I See.
¨ God Is The Mind With Which I Think.
¨ God Is The Love In Which I Forgive.
¨ God Is The Strength In Which I Trust.
¨ God Is My Strength. Vision Is His Gift.
¨ There Is Nothing To Fear.
¨ God Goes With Me Wherever I Go.
¨ God’s Voice Speaks To Me All Through The Day.
¨ I Am Sustained By The Love Of God.
¨ I Am As God Created Me.
¨ I Rest in God.

God is not lost!

Remember:
God Is.
And always was
And always will be.
He is not lost.
You are!